Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Sparks

I looked at the night sky, the tranquil ocean and the golden moon from the bow of my ship. It looked like God had set up a huge canvas , pouring all the kinds of blue on his landscape , ending it with a dollop of gold as the moon. I looked at the twinkling, clear night sky and the enormity of the entire creation struck me. The vast expanse of the sky and ocean filled the entire horizon. It defined infinity.

I was just a blot in the horizon. A drop spilled when the canvas was painted. I felt insignificant. I wanted to do something which would make the world sit up, and take notice. I wanted to be God - creating an island or a typhoon with a single swish of his hand, like an opera.

'I am significant' screamed my mind. So screamed the dust speck too.

Then this spark of thought vanished as suddenly as it had come and I sat contentedly watching the sparkling night sky and my coffee cup ,which was smoking like a chimney.

27 comments:

Neelam Prabhu Gaonker said...

and when your mind screams 'i'm significant'....there is another mind thousands of miles away which echoes the thought....right outta the 5x5 cubicle !!! :))

Sukumar said...

You are really "significant" to all of us

Hemamalini said...

@neelam - hey echo:), do you remember the conversation we had abt the 'fear of being anonymous?';)

Hemamalini said...

@sukumar - :D

Neelam Prabhu Gaonker said...

how can i forget the convo hems...thats the first thing that ever comes to my mind netime i have the fear creepin up to me again...:D

jesse said...

hey hema i am your senior at school.good to know you are doing great:)

kray said...

Sometimes, not very often, but sometimes it is a liberating feeling if you figure that everything that's ever happened in the Universe has led up to this point in your life. With so much work gone into you, insignificance is rather unthinkable isn't it? :D

kray said...

Oh, and welcome to the spammed bloggers' club :P.

Subha said...

Sounds awesome..very pleasant:)
Wanted to ask you,if you had enjoyed watchin the sky at night with the coffee cup after reading about your evenin experience.. nice to know that you actually did:)
Felt like the "jack" in Titanic??
Reminds me of the best and the shortest scene in the movie when he looks at the night-sky.

Hemamalini said...

@kray.. Interesting. yes,I have never thought that way.But still, all the effort that went into this point in life was a conspiracy of the Universe in which I had no say or control!!
and the point in being just another person.

Hemamalini said...

@subha..it was really an awesome feeling.., seriously:)..I might have tried ' ím the queen of the world', drawing inspiration from the titanic..but didnt do so cos of the fear of looking like a silly-willy;)

yes, the night sky is so clear and unobstructed, it looks like a planetarium:D..and the sunset is equally awesome.., though these two are the only outdoor scenes i get to see!

Hemamalini said...

@jesse.. hi..how is life at your end?:)

Hemamalini said...

@neelam.. yup..,our morning talking marathons:D..remember the swing one - 'the fear of letting go?'.. ;) that creeps in me too!

Anil said...

I have only one word to express what i felt after reading.

Its 'Phantasmagoric'... :-)

Enjoy ur ride...

Hemamalini said...

@anil..,thats a lovely word:)has a mysterious feel to it..


its not a ride..,I work here;)shall enjoy it nevertheless!:D

Anil said...

wow... ur work seems to be interesting!! U have been perked up with such a lovely touring along with your work :)

by the way what do u do?

toodlee-ooo,

Hemamalini said...

@anil..,i am a seismic engineer on a ship;)...
the sea and the sky and the ship encompass the entire world of outdoors:)

jesse said...

really? i'm surprised.life will be very boring then.:(

Hemamalini said...

@jesse.. yes..,but there's work as well..,and the sunset,the sea and the sky do look magical - and that is the most optimistic way of looking at it!!:)

Anil said...

Tatz an adventurous job indeed :),

But seriously dont you feel banal sometimes looking at water surrounding all the time and confined to your vessel :?

But if the ship is like Star Cruises then 'la heaven' in the midst of the sea ;-)

kray said...

Heh heh, sorry to intrude, but couldn't help chuckling to my self at 'banal' :D

Hemamalini said...

@anil.. the ship is not exactly a la the star cruise;) but is pretty cosy..

I admit that it tends to get a tad boring at times..,but hey,i am not complaining:D..

probably wd give inspiration to the sequel of the Rhyme of the Ancient mariner?:D:D

Anil said...

well i m wondering who would be 'greybeard loon' in your sequel :p

waiting for your inspiration to get personified as the sequel of Rhyme of the Ancient mariner :D,

'Complain'ing can only be tagged with JOB and not with WORK ;-),

Hemamalini said...

:D so that means nobody who is WORKing can be absolutely happy, without complaining?:))

am just twisting what you said:D:D

Anil said...

No, I never meant that...:p.

At first place we never complain with our 'WORK' :-), because its something we want to do and enjoy doing!!

But we start complainin when (s)he doesnt enjoy doing and forced to do then it becomes 'JOB'!! isnt it?

Hemamalini said...

oh!I actually think the other way round - I like my 'job' because of the adventures and surprises involved, but not when there is too much WORK around!!:D

Neelam Prabhu Gaonker said...

yeah...the fear of letting go...it has seeped into me too !!! many a time nowadays i yearn to leap off the swing hems...n yet the same fear makes my fingers curl tightly around the rusty metal links....:))

i guess u will understand what am talkin abt ;)